So Covid is behind me once again and more normal living has resumed. My husband and I have been RV camping three or four days a week out at Skyline near Attica. What with Labor Day complete, the summer is winding down. Because July meant daily trips to radiation, I lost July and feel the summer has been short. I can't help it. Where did the summer go?
Sunday we had a chance to get together for a picnic with my three boys and three of my grandsons. My youngest has built a cabin on his Java Center property so we enjoyed his place thoroughly, marveling at what a beautiful job he has done with landscaping in the woods.
When he talks, I see in his face a love for the country as he describes everything he has done to create this respite. His connection with the natural world is intense, something I easily identify because that was me once upon a time. There is nothing quite like bonding with the land. You feel part of it. You feel drawn to the drama behind the elements as you admire the wildlife and honor their very existence.
Talk about tales. As a family, we often share stories and hysterics regarding our life over 34 years of my running a summer equestrian camp. The boys get going about their summer antics and before I know it, they are sharing their behind the scenes shenanigans with campers - often silly stuff - that I never knew about. If I live long enough, maybe I will get it all. Hmmm. Not sure about that. I'm thinking most mothers never really hear all the stories their kids could tell about their growing up years.
Driving back to Skyline from our picnic, I was quiet. My husband wondered what I was thinking and I had to confess my cherished love for the beauty of the Java Center countryside that I lived in and loved for all those 34 years. And then, talk about cherishing, I reviewed afternoon conversations with the boys and my grandsons that were special to me. Sweet.
I have discovered I am not good with words when it comes to saying thank you to my boys. I try. When I say thank you for how they kept me going this last year, it doesn't feel like 'thank you' is enough. Their frequent phone calls, cards, flowers and occasional visits were priceless.
On days when I was low or feeling utterly lousy, a call from one them would lift me up, reminding me that God was in the process and keeping us connected. I felt so loved. I was not alone. Their timing was always perfect. Their thoughtfulness was genuine. If ever they read these words, may they understand my deep gratitude that they are my sons and we are family. I am so blessed.
Signed as a loving mom, the quilting cancer girl
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