Being Open Really Works for Me

One of the immediate and most important decisions I made at the onset of this cancer challenge was to be open and straight. I am not a person who can keep secrets - unless it is about a surprise party - and while this is its own kind of surprise party, I know I must talk with people. Whether its venting or crying or proclaiming a good test result, I must share. That's just me.

Well, after numbly telling my husband the results of the core biopsy, I connected with my two sisters - one in Indianapolis and one in Chicago - and then I contacted my children. Never did I want them angry because I had withheld facts about my situation. So, immediate family - even my little dog, Claire -  has been in on everything, right from day one.

I also am open with all of you. You are my quilting ladies or you are my camp staff or you are campers from years gone by or you are friends in the neighborhood. You know that I have cancer and I ask for your love, that you may remember me in your ongoing prayers, that I may survive this as calmly and gracefully as possible...that we may continue in communion with each other for years to come.

Here is my challenge: to be on the receiving end of such love. I have lived a life of giving. Each morning when I wake, I pray, "How can I make a difference today, Lord?" and "What challenge are we going to tackle together?"

Now you are making a difference to me. The love that surrounds me is staggering...overwhelming. God speaks to me through your notes and conversations and sense of humor. You are with me. You are steadfast. Your prayers are felt.  I am beyond grateful because I feel hugged every single moment of every single day. How reassuring is that! I am so blessed. Thank you.